So I am really to get worried about Mike and I....feels like a rut again. Or worse :( which I hope not. He has this West Virginia run, he is just all to eager to do now. He is starting to leave earlier than he used to before. I really hope it isn't what I think it is. I know I should talk to him, that's what we agreed to, but it seems more and more I do that he gets mad about it....I don't know what to do. I'm very depressed. I have started cutting to take the pain way. I know it dangerous thing to do. Except I hear myself saying "do it", " just enough to see blood"....I hate feeling....I Hate have all of these emotions at once, some are so confusing, I can't sort through them. And other days everything makes perfect sense...I have decided not to cut anymore on my arm, its to hard to explain away... Cats etc.... I wish I could find a place where I could hide from everything.
This" Blog" or Place to write my thoughts down is just that... Please do not expect correct punctuation,spelling,or editing, I am just me... I am simply trying my best. I am dysfunctional woman who is a mom and happily married wife coping with "Empty Nest whatever the Hell! " and It helps me to talk about it :) I know I did really great with my kids, I Love them very much!
Monday, September 14, 2015
Hopeless feeling
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