Well..., panic disorders, anxiety attacks, and depression are really slamming me hard. I take my klonopin pill ( which I think needs changed) I take my cymbalta, and my topamax...I cant do anything without thinking everyone is judging me... Start with when ever I do manage to leave to house. I try to remember all my control techniques, But alot of the time they dont work and i start crying and shaking feels like my chest is being pushed in. My safety area is my home and my porch. My sit, I sit drink coffee, smoke a cigarette, maybe, I toss a ball to my dog.....Oh yyeah that too... I SHOULD be able to take dog with me into any store, because she keeps me calm. She IS my emotional support dog. I got kicked out Dollar Tree store in lower Burrell because she was reacting to a dog outside of the store. IT IS SUCH BULL! It really upset me so badly I haven't able to go into any stores by myself now unless someone is with me. Is bad. The fear is starting to grow to to we're people are judging me on the phone now...I'm starting to wish so badly I had someone who could make calls for me and do shopping me. I just have no desire to see people are be around them. All they do is judge me anyway.
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